This past year has to have been one of the most difficult years of my life.

This past year, I lost a lot of very good people. I’m honestly the worst at keeping people close to me anyways. It’s to be expected that in 2016 I gained so many amazing people and then the following year to see them leave. I can’t say that it still doesn’t hurt, because every time I think about it, it still stings.

This past year, I realized I do have amazing lifetime friends in my life. I only grew to love them more as I went through my few months of difficult times.

This past year, everyone kept telling me I would get over the pain, the aching in my heart. Well, it is now 2018 and my heart is still aching. My heart aches for the people that over looked me. My heart aches for the ones telling me I wasn’t good enough. My heart aches for my dreams being crushed. My heart aches for my friends being told the same things over and over. My heart just aches for the people who manipulated me and my friends. One day you will realize what you have done and you will feel guilty, wanting to fix everything you’ve done.

This past year, I truly realized that the world is a gross place. People suck. Well, I kind of already knew that but, I now know more than ever. My dreams will never become reality. I’m going to be stuck in a shitty job, going home to a husband who just came home from a shitty job, eating leftovers, and living a boring life.

This past year has only ever made me a “stronger” person. I will eventually rebuild myself and do something even greater than the destiny I thought I had.

As we start 2018, I would like to say I’m sorry. I’m sorry I shut down. I’m sorry I haven’t been there for people I care about. I’m sorry I let so many people down this past year. I only hope that we can all be better people in 2018.

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Fall Semester Bucketlist

The fall semester has officially started. It’s yet another year at the beautiful campus of IUP.

Autumn is a time for change. Here are ten things I would like to accomplish throughout my fall semester.

1. Plan ahead/Don’t procrastinate

I’m completely terrible at actually doing assignments ahead of the due dates. I’d really like to be as stress-free as possible this semester. My classes aren’t the easiest and they will only get harder as I go through my junior and senior years.

2. Get a campus job

I’ve had work-study before and never applied anywhere because I was afraid I wouldn’t have time. This semester I would like to try and tackle a job to have extra money for food, sorority related items, and bills. My only worry is that I will slip with my school work or not be as connected with my sisters.

3. Be nice

If you don’t know me personally, I’m not the nicest person in the whole world. I used to be actually. All through my life, I was trampled on because I was the nice, quiet girl. I then decided that enough was enough. Now, it’s just got out of hand and I’m basically just a bitch. I’d really like to be nicer but not as nice as I once was. I want to be kind gestures out of the blue and make people smile.

4. Start a YouTube channel

I’d really like to start a small channel this year. I know I won’t have a lot of time to make the best quality videos but, I would like to try. I’ve been obsessed with the thought of making a channel for such a long time but I am just a socially awkward human. You basically have to talk to yourself but then when you upload, you’re talking to hundreds of people.

5. Have a Successful Recruitment Season

Fall is much different from spring recruitment. It’s harder to get girls interested. You basically have to rely on your sisters to know girls who would be interested in joining or talking to girls in your classes in hopes they are interested as well.

6. Having a Normal Sleep Schedule 

Unfortunately, this semester, I have an 8 a.m. on Tuesday and Thursday so, I want to be as alert as possible. I’ll never be 100%, due to the fact I’m not a morning person, but I’d like to try. Coffee is going to be my best friend this semester.

7. Use The Gym

I’m paying for the school’s gym anyways. I might as well take advantage of it. I’m not the workout, fitness type of girl but if it’s close and convenient, I might as well use it. I just won’t be giving up my pasta, pizza, or fast food.

8. Study Harder

I’m terrible at studying. I don’t think I’ll even get the proper handle on how to study. I easily get distracted, don’t know what to memorize/understand and what to ignore. I love professors that give me study guides because if not, I never feel prepared enough. I like to know the subjects to spend my time on and what to know but not get too hung up about.

9. Appreciate The Amazing People In My Life

I basically do this already but I feel like I need to show them more how much they mean to me. I have made amazing friends while at school. Most of them will be graduating this year so I need to show them how much they have affected me in a positive way.

10. Enjoy The Little Things

College goes by so quickly. You only will see these people on the daily for a short period of time. I need to appreciate college memories a little bit more than I already do. The years through school have been up and down for me. I’ve had bad moments and amazing moments. I don’t want to dawn on the bad but rather on the great.

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Packing 101

It’s finally August, meaning, it’s finally time to go back to school. Freshmen are over packing and seniors are taking the bare minimum. I’m currently going into my junior year of college and here are a few tricks I have learned over the past two years of packing for school.

Don’t Wait Till Last Minute

It seems a bit obvious but you’d be surprised how many people are still going to wait a few days before they have to go to school to actually pack.

I waited until two nights before I went to school my freshman year and still ended up packing the morning I was supposed to be leaving. It will leave you more stressed and make you not want to go even more. I know I waited because I couldn’t get myself to believe I was going to college, but it’s happening people. It’s time to start packing.

Start packing, at least, a week in advance. You’d also be amazed how many things you forgot because you waited until last minute.

Make a List

When packing, try to be as organized as possible. This will make this process less stressful and you feel accomplished afterward.

Start with school supplies, then your bedroom, then the kitchen, then the bathroom. Take it one room at a time. Don’t go from one room then to another and back to the first room. This will make it more confusing.

Talk to Your Roommate

Your roommate just might have that one item you don’t have for the kitchen. Also, make sure your roommate is okay with sharing. Most people are okay with it but some people like their things to themselves. Make sure you’re at an understanding.

Talk to them about your class schedule, when you shower, when you go to the dining halls, if you’re in any other activities, if you’re thinking about joining any activities, what your major is, if you already have friends, if you’re single or not, when it’s okay to bring people into your dorm, if they play loud music, when they go to sleep/when quiet time should be, where you like to study, the list could go on but honestly ask them these things to make sure you two don’t get at each other’s throats.

Marking Boxes

My mom is the best person when it comes to packing. We use reusable totes we bought at Walmart and organized each box with the room/items are inside of it. I have a box for cleaning supplies, kitchen, desk/school supplies, bedroom, winter clothing, and holiday decoration. I do have some random boxes that I put things like clothing, makeup, books, food, and anything else I need for school.

Be Prepared to Forget Something

It will never fail that I will forget something in my bedroom back home. I will double and then triple check my list and think I have everything packed.

Don’t feel like an idiot that you forgot to buy command strips or a curtain rod for your room. Hundreds of people will be at Walmart with you buying these things nodding their head as they see what you are buying.

Also, look and see if your college town has anything other than Walmart because it’s going to be crazy. I usually go to Dollar General, Big Lots, or the Dollar Tree first to see if they have what I forgot. When worse comes to worst, I do take a trip to Walmart.

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Dog Sitting

Most everyone enjoys the company of good old dogs. But, have you ever thought of making a living out of babysitting them?

In the summer, my family friends go on vacation for weeks or even longer and ask myself if I would watch over their dogs at their home. This summer I agreed to watch two households full of dogs.

At these homes, the families ask if I would care for their dog(s); including; feeding, letting them outside, walking, cleaning any messes they make, etc. These families are very kind and also include food for me for the week. In return, I clean their house before they come back from vacation.

I don’t set a charge for the families and accept anything they want to pay me. I’m a poor college kid who enjoys getting new things so money is money to me.

Watching the dogs is not hard either because most dogs warm up to me very easily. I enjoy spoiling them and making sure they are loved at all times.

I believe this job is very ideal for someone with a part-time job or even someone in-between jobs.

I also work at my part-time job while I’m watching these dogs so I’m gaining even more money.

It’s so much easier than babysitting and a lot more relaxed. If you’re an animal lover, I highly recommend asking on your local selling Facebook page if anyone is in search of a dog sitter. You can also ask your friends or coworkers if they are in need of someone. My best connection is my mom since she knows most everyone in town from her work.

I recommend meeting the dogs and previewing the house before agreeing to dog sitting. Sometimes the dogs may not like you and it could turn into a disaster.

Best of luck if you consider taking on this job.

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10 Shows to Watch This Summer On Netflix

1. Supergirl


I myself am a huge superheroes fan. I enjoy watching superhero movies and the TV shows. It, of course, is originally on the CW. This network is just amazing at picking up brilliant shows. All of my favorite shows originally aired on the CW.

Supergirl is about Superman’s cousin, who is technically older than him and was sent to guide him. Her ship was thrown off and she reached Earth a lot longer than her cousin. She also didn’t reveal she was an alien until she was much older. She fights other aliens and makes it look so badass. Superman is also featured, which makes me happy because he’s my favorite. There are only two seasons but I highly recommend the binge.

2. Sherlock


Yes, the episodes are more like movies but man is it worth it. Every second of the episodes will blow your mind. It’s so brilliantly done. The acting, the camera work, the editing, everything about this series is amazing. The current season literally blew my mind. If you love twists and action, just watch. You will not be disappointed.

Sherlock is literally just a modern take on the famous Sherlock Holmes novels. I adore the modern take and it makes it so much more entertaining.

3. The Office


I don’t care that you’ve already watched every episode before. You must rewatch it. This is my go to show if I have no idea what to watch. It’s hilarious and Jim and Pam only get better every time I rewatch.

The Office is about a document of a paper company. It takes you through the lives of a small paper company in Scranton, Pennsylvania. The fact that it’s based in Pennsylvania makes it ten times funnier because it shows how boring life is here. The characters are so thought out and the acting is just perfect. Everyone in this show is so funny and you will find one character that you just love the most. Mine, of course, has to be Jim. Watch the show to put yourself in a good mood.

4. Riverdale


I really didn’t want to like this show but, again, CW never disappoints. There is murder, a love triangle, and Cole Sprouse, what more do you need. This show is completely crazy. I binged the whole show the day it came to Netflix and not for one second did I want to stop watching. If this show gets canceled, I will blow up. It’s so good.

The show is based on comics, Archie. The show is based around a murder of the richest family’s son. They believed he just drowned in the river but it turns out he was shot and all the kids in town need to know why and how he was killed. While they are doing that there is drama with a new girl in town, a love triangle, Archie’s music career, and so much more.

5. One Tree Hill


Are you even surprised that I’m suggesting another CW show? I really really didn’t want to like this show but I was sucked in. The first few episodes made me want to die. Two half brothers fighting over a spot on the basketball team… such high school. But then Brooke was featured and she made the whole show for me.

The show is originally just about the Scott brother’s fighting over how Lucas got on the basketball team. There is a love triangle at first but Nathan falls for someone he never thought he would fall for. Brooke is just a slut in the first few seasons but she knows she’s worth more and shows the world that. Lucas fights for the girl. Peyton stays her badass self. I just can’t explain what the show is about. If you’re into drama, just watch.

6. Supernatural


This show has been running for years and there is a reason for that. The show just keeps blowing my mind. The love between Sam and Dean makes my heart melt. Castel is the most beautiful angel ever. Oh, of course, it’s on the CW.

Supernatural is so hard to explain. Sam and Dean hunt monsters, demons, the supernatural. But, then you throw in Heaven and Hell, the apocalypse, love triangles, sex, angels and demons, family, people dying, people being brought back to life. There is so much going on that you can’t stop watching.

7. Parks and Recreation


This show has to be one of my favorite shows of all time. It’s funny, relatable, and has a strong female lead. You wouldn’t think a show about the smallest part of government would be so successful but it’s amazing. It’s similar to The Office but I actually like Parks and Rec a little better. Andy and April are litereally Colton and me.

Parks and Recreation is about Pawnee’s Parks and Recreation department. You get to know all the personal lives of all the characters and grow to love them.

8. Jessica Jones 


Surprisingly, this is the only Marvel TV show I enjoy watching. I recommend all of the Marvel movies but the shows that Netflix brings to life are just missing something. Jessica Jones is so good. I’m personally a huge fan of David Tennant and he did not disappoint as Kilgrave.

Jessica was controlled by Kilgrave to be in love with him. Even when she gets away, he finds her again. She then gets her revenge.

9. Girlboss


It’s a really funny show with such a strong female lead.

Sophia is in her 20s and can’t keep a job. She then buys a jacket at a thrift store and sells it on eBay for more than three times the amount she paid for it. She then realizes that it was her calling and she starts to sell vintage clothing online for a living.

10. Call The Midwife

Call The Midwife

This show is adorable and almost educational. You follow these few midwives around the poor side of the city and watch them deliver babies and help the families during pregnancy. I’ve just recently started watching it but I really like it so far.

11. The Royals


This is not exactly on Netflix but it’s still an amazing show. You can find it on Amazon Prime, but it only includes the first two seasons.

It’s a drama about love, murder, revenge, and the royals of England. Every single episode blew my mind. It’s well written and the acting is just perfect. I highly recommend this show.

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